I think the hardest part of being a mom comes each Monday (or Tuesday) that I go back to work. Every morning I leave my house wishing I could just stay home and cuddle, play, and take care of Jackson. It has gotten easier since I have returned to work. The first few weeks back felt like torcher! But now I can leave and I rarely get teary-eyed. Although, each break in our regular schedule seems to put me back into the "stay at home mommy" mode. I have so much fun when Jackson and I are at home doing things together. Life feels more relaxing and calming when I am at home.
I feel like my days are so tight when school is in session. I get up, rush to get ready, go to work, rush home to pick up Jackson, get dinner ready, feed, bathe and get him to bed. Before I know it it's 10pm and I still have laundry to fold, dishes to put away, and school work to complete. I could use about 2 hours more per night to sleep, too! The weekends are just as scheduled... it feels like we always have something going on. We have tried hard to stick around home this January. We were out of town most weekends in December, so we needed a break. But it still feels like we spend so much time rushing to get stuff done! I have been doing well at getting my errands done on a Saturday or Sunday afternoon so I don't have to worry about them during the week. That has freed up a lot time!
So, to remedy some of my homesickness... because at this point staying home is not an option... I am looking into my other options. First, I can try to transfer to a new school that is closer to home with in the Davenport School District. This of course is ideal, because I would not have to learn a new system. However, I have low senority and getting into a school on the East side of Davenport is highly unlikely. So, my next option is to apply at other school districts. Which I will be working on in the next couple of weeks. I have to think about my family first and for my family me being 25 minutes away from home is just too far. I love where I work and the people I work with... it's a hard choice!
Mommy world is the hardest but best thing that I have ever done. I love my son and husband more than I could have ever imagined before now! Andy is always so helpful and really does more than I could ask. He has taken to fatherhood and loves it!
Back to the grind... the inauguration is on soon. My students are excited to get to watch the excitement.